I’m in that empty state of being. Again. Excitement. That’s a new word. Didn’t feel it for a long long time..just wished I could be enthousiastic again about people or places or anything. Days are simply running by me without any feeling from my part. What’s funny about it is that a long time ago I used to get too involved, too hopeful. Silly dreamer girl. Never calibrated with reality. How did I get so passive? Nothing touches me, nothing reaches deep inside. Almost as if i were in a latent state. Doesn’t seem like much, but feeling nothing whatsoever…it’s sad.
I wanna feel something, i want to believe in something again.